big episode

hi everyone,
well so much for doing without meds. i am taking zyprexa now, total of fifteen mil. per day.
the mania escalated into a full blown crazy episode, really psychotic. i am very tired right now from the zyprexa. just wanted to post something as the blog is very therapeutic. actually there was blog stuff in my episode. it was extremely intense and long and denzel said i talked non stop for hours and hours...
more on it later. we're still not sure about the breastfeeding as there is not enough evidence. i'm for continuing while on zyprexa and denzel is more cautious. i'm pumping and still feeeding her alittle so she can have that with me.
it's been very tough week.
does anyone out there know much about zyprexa or did you take it while breastfeeding?
also when did you start gaining lots of weight as that is a big side effect.
i'm too tired to write more but hope to make a comic strip soon....